Yesterday morning we were contemplating going to church, should we stay home and relax or get out of the house. Our neighbors called and told us about a Christmas cantada at a local church and we all decided to head over to the cantada. It was wonderful,you never hear choirs anymore so it was refreshing. As they went through the songs my mind started tryig to unravel what Mary must have been feeling , emotions I could not comprehend. Pregnancy is hard and at times with the hormones I felt like a puppet on a string. Here she is in a fearful state giving birth to the son of God. As a new mom I pictured Mary in stable having one of those out of body expeirences with a panoramic view,she sitting still while everyone else is busy.

I worry about raising Dillon, should I let him watch that show, or hear this music, did you just say that word in front of my son. Parenthood is so overwhelming. Here is Mary with the biggest most overwhelming task of all,raising Jesus.Admist all the craziness it was good to be reminded of the true meaning of Christmas. This year has been different a constant struggle to be joyful,to find meaning. Alot of our family and friends are out of work or dealing with chronic illnesses. In Christmas choirs, shopping lists, and baked cookies HE is there, just take moment and know that he is God.

What do you believe is the true meaning of this holiday season and how do you celebrate ?